I'm feeling a bit emotionally unstable today due to several reasons... And I was telling myself maybe I could write something on my blog.. Who would read it anyway? But then when I looked at my recent blog traffic, there were 1000+ visit last month. Thus I will try to write this as subtle as I can.....
"She was awakened by the piercing sliver of sunlight that fell on her eyes. "I should've woke up earlier," she thought. She packed her things and set out in an easy and smooth trot. She was in no hurry to reach her destination but she wanted to start earlier on to get the glimpse of the velvet sky in the break of dawn that she love very much. She love it how the daylight victoriously claim it's place from darkness to its full glory. Turning the dark into velvet, then come the blinding tangerine and finally revealing the stunning azure. She thought that's how a human spirit should face challenges in life. Become the sun. Become her own light that uncovers the beauty that lies underneath every trial and tribulation.
Her mind drifted to the day when she faced the treacherous trader of the dessert. He was a man of power whose wants and desires cannot be denied, does whatever he please and oppresses the weak. On that fateful day, she saw a huge crowd at the entrance of the village market. Curious; she trudged her way through and found there was a woman of old age in the middle with her hands and legs tied. And next to her stood the treacherous trader of the dessert spilling words of ridicule, trampling the woman's dignity and honour. Nobody dare to interfere; the huge throng of people was only there to watch, listen and not offer help. She stepped out of the crowd into the middle of the ring and said "This has to stop!" And that was how she became an outcast. There was never a day that she regretted what she did. Because when she screamed the four words, all heads turned to her and so does the fury of the treacherous trader of the dessert. All attention was on the girl, the first ever person who stood against who is believed to be invincible..."
This one is going to be the straightforward part...
I am seriously tired of people asking me why am I not married yet... And I'm also tired of people trying to match me with people... And I'm saddened by the fact that nowadays if I get along with some guys who might have the same hobbies and interest as I am, people and even the guys I'm friends will think I'm on the hunt and as if my eyes are on them...
Belahlah dadaku.. Sunggoh tiada niat sebegitu..
I don't have the answer to when... Neither do I have the answer to why... I'm just not the kind who will go after every guy that seems like a potential suitor and woo them... And I'm not the kind who flirts around either...
I'm not sad because I haven't found someone. I'm sad because I am misunderstood...
Do you know how it feels?
Sakitnya tuh di sinih!
Allah knows best..
Bole tak tanye Allah rather than tanye ai?
Alhamdulillah I've uploaded the first video from our Tanzania trip. I'm suck at video editing thus please bear with this super amateur video production hehehe
Anyway, this one was recorded while we were visiting a Maasai village on our way back from Serengeti. We were of course quite nervous; we didn't read anything about the Maasai before the trip and we didn't know what to expect. But we had a really good time there with Ponja, the Maasai chief as our guide in the village.
According to Stephan, the Maasai is one of the most popular tribe because they preserve their customs and cultures to this day. They still live in Maasai boma; a house made of cow dung and mud. And as we cruise along the road in Tanzania, we can almost always see the Maasai boys and men herding their cattle and goats..
So here is the video (^^)
Thank you for watching!
|Lady Barron falls|
|She who fears destitute~|
OMG OMG OMG.... I haven't been writing for quite some time now. To be honest, I've been experiencing something that I always heard about but never had before.. WRITER'S BLOCK... It's just so weird that I can't put my thoughts into words... Anyway, Happy New Year! (^^)/
I don't know whether it's just me or what, but I think 2014 went by just like that and poof! it's already 2015... 2013 was a harsh one for me; perhaps my ultimate year of sorrow for now. Thus, I'd promised myself to make 2014 a much much better one. I was determined to start anew.
Let's just start with our trips.. We haven't got any destination by the time we were done with Tasmania and NZ. I was only saying to my friends that I feel like going to Indochina; one of the reason is because I was broke so I wanted to go for the cheaper ones first hehe We got the tickets quite late and it was not that cheap and RA brought along 2 of her colleagues. I was worried at first if my itinerary was too packed and we were moving about everyday that it might make them tired and not enjoy that trip. But, Alhamdulillah both of them were such a sport and was okay when I carelessly planned our mode of transport from Ho Chi Minh to Hanoi. Haha seb baek aku tenang orangnya :p
Our second trip was to Tanzania. This was something that suddenly popped out of my mind and we were lucky enough that there was a promo on that day. We bought the ticket immediately! I say this ttrip was like a very very very different experience altogether. Whenever I say that I'm going to Africa, the first thing that people will ask me was "Kamu ikut tour dari Malaysia?" And when I said "No", then they will start nagging about safety and about we're being too brave. In all honesty, I was quite nervous myself because we heard many things about the continent but all that was later proved wrong. Safari is actually a very expensive activity and I was emailing this long list of companies to compare price and then I'd opted a small local company for the tour because it was the cheapest of all. As a precaution I actually emailed all their other guests to avoid scam hahaha semangat kan. Better safe then sorry bha kan. And Alhamdulillah, their service was very good, they treated us like princesses and we felt safe throughout the trip :)
Our last trip was to Nepal for hiking! \(^^)/ Actually to get a glimpse of Everest has always been in my wishlist. I'm not sure whether it was initially in the others' wishlist, but it seem that over the years our list naturally merged and it lengthened~ hahaha We were in Nepal for 16 days and 10 days were spent on hiking. I didn't have a proper shower for 10 days!!!!!!! That's a personal record!!!! Although it was mentally and physically exhausting, that was the best hiking experience ever. I'll do it again some day.. When I'm rich because it is actually quite pricey... The rest of our trip will be written in other posts... Pada entah kurun ke berapa~ heeeeeee...
Career-wise... Of course, that I've now become somewhat senior, it got more challenging but I've set it at the very beginning of the year that I'm going to be more productive. I was determined to learn as much as I can, I wanted to improvise a lot of things and I challenged myself to implement new things that seem impossible in the past. Well, not everything turn out the way I want, though . But I guess those things that didn't work out was worth trying rather than being kept in my temple, isn't it? And I think, best of all, I was blessed with a good team that now our role is being recognized and I hope it stays that way or become even better while I'm away for study leave, inshaAllah.. Hehe I'm still learning to put aside personal things so it won't affect my professional life... Tapi kadang-kadang, memang ada urge mo tumbuk jak muka difficult people who like to make others' life difficult... Hahaha
And at 28, you find that the "Bila kawen?" questions start to evolve to "Aku ada kenal sorang yang tengah mencari..". And then there are some aunties who seem to be fond to match me with their sons and I got dizzy thinking of how am I going to make a rejection sound kind and nice... Adoi.. Seriously this is more taxing to handle than climbing to a 5000 m peak. And it's even suffocating when your cousin goes like "Pak cik nda ada ka kawan yang ada anak bujang untuk gg?" to your dad... Hello! Do I look like I'm a miserable single damsel in distress??? Pastilah tidak kaaaaannnnnn...
To me, everything in life has its own time and place. Yes, many of my friends got married through this match making process that was arranged by family or usrah.. But that's not for everybody.. And I hate it very much when people start suggesting me that because I have never ever ever lament about still being single.. I never even complaint.. Orang lain yang sibuk ni~ I know clearly what I want in life and I know clearly what I want in marriage as well so if I haven't found the one yet, I am okay to wait.. I don't know who is it yet. He might be someone who is already in my life but we have yet to realize it or he might still be out there... This might sound childish but I don't want to get married just for the sake of having someone but I want to be with someone I want to live with and he should also feel the same...
So, that's it for now sebab aku sumpah mengantuk gila ni~