The Heart....

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Bismillah...

The heart is created being a delicate and a dynamic structure of the body. In school, I was taught that it was made of strains of muscles that has four compartments and whose function is to pump blood into the lungs and then back to the entire body when the blood is already fed with oxygen....

The heart shape symbolizes the feeling of love and affection although some argue that all of the feelings actually originate from the mind.

Although I am somewhat more of a 'science person' in regards of what I do for a living, I am very much inclined to accept that all sort of feelings is felt by the heart rather than being a state of mind....

For the past few months, I've been trying to deliberately prompt it to have a change to what it is fond to, to what it is drawn to but to no avail. Sometimes it is very confusing of how it is constantly reminded of someone who is so distant, someone whom I had very little pleasant moments together but nonetheless still very significant to the heart.. "What is wrong with you heart?" I asked sometimes

There are many things I wish I had an answer to but I guess this is the beauty of our story; the mysteries I failed to unfold. But I know the right thing to do is to avoid from making things become complicated. That is to keep my distance... To know my boundaries... To steadfastly hold to my values and beliefs. And in my attempt to do so, I found that this is not an easy path. This journey needs me to be strong because the heart sometimes don't listen to what you're asking it to do~

"When circumstances contradict to our wants,
And our values and beliefs are the only things that we can cling to,
The only way to endure and thrive is to jive with uncertainty,
And patiently wait for the unexpected to happen..."


Sometimes.. I do have the "If only I..." moments but I know those were only the whispers of man's greatest adversary. Admittedly, there are times I wished I'd been bolder or more approachable or sweeter or more flirtatious.. But... No... Not for this one... Not this time... Not anymore...

I'd made a promise years ago, that I will never associate myself into something that will compromise my love towards my Creator and His messenger...

"Do not even come close to zina.."

I've been in one relationship before and no, it doesn't bring me closer to Allah... It drifted me away further and further although gradually, I was not getting closer... I observed those who are in love around me who has yet to establish marriage... As they stare into each others' eyes pensively, fingers interlocking... I thought, "No, this is not what I want..."

And when I saw messages coming in.. Asking out for dinner.. Hanging out.. Or just checking me out.. No, this is not what I want either.. Because, although these men might not have bad intentions, but I think it is best to avoid. Adultery and fornication don't just happen in this society I'm living in. Things like one night stand is out of the norm. It happens when one falls for the lies of the greatest adversary who have been patiently persuading the heart..

"Reply his message.."
"He is a good man.. Going out with him is no harm.."
"He didn't touch your hands intentionally.."
"No one will know if you become intimate with him.. Nobody sees the two of you.."

That is why the message is such that we are not to come close to anything that could lead us to zina... And I'm still struggling...

I'm off to where I'd spent my time for the first time and the last with him tomorrow.. In hope that I can collect my heart where I left it off last October. I have to move on.... I have to let him go... And I have to give way to another who is capable of giving his heart in return... Who can't live seeing me with someone else except him... I guess you can live with that, he-who-doesn't-know...

I pray for the best for both of us...

********When I started writing this, I was actually missing him so much. To an extend I asked Allah "What is this, ya Allah? If he is not who You destined for me, please let this go away..."

And guess what, the next day, I found him in a place where I don't expect him to be. I don't see it as a sign or anything. I just think that is to heal what I felt the night before (^^) I'm happy to see him, anyway. Walaupon perasaan itu bercampur malu. Sometimes, you just look at the one you want, and when it is not meant for you, then you start thinking, Allah has better plans for both of us....******

Praying for MH370

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Bismillah...

Currently, the whole nation and perhaps the whole world is fogged with sadness by the lost of MH370.. I've been an ardent follower to latest updates of the missing aircraft for the past two weeks although I've not been too eager  to manifest that on facebook. I was driving towards a diner when I heard that the Prime Minister was going to make an important announcement at 10 pm on the 23rd March. I rushed home after I gobbled up all the food that I ordered in much haste; I didn't want to miss it! And there he was, our respected Prime Minister, announcing in his solemn voice that investigators have confirmed that the aircraft ended at the southern part of the Indian Sea...

Upon hearing that, I just can't contain myself. Tears start to well on  the brim of my eyes, I walked into my room and start to weep. O I know how it feels to lose someone all of a sudden and it is still fresh although it's going to be a year in two months or so. It must have been harder for the affected families of the crews and passengers with the mystery of the whereabouts of the aircraft, with the various speculations going around and accusations of irresponsible people that relates this  incidence to political interest and whatnot.. It is just so disappointing that some parties are just insensitive to the feelings of the affected people... Nda faham aku~


So in this post, I would like to deliver my deepest condolence to the affected families. I hope they are given strength to accept the reality. The whole world is praying for those who perished; may they be in peace in the other world and be in Allah's mercy at all times. We Muslims believe and Qada and Qadr. And for everything that happens, Allah is so merciful that no matter how hard it is to face His test, there will always be something good to it one day, inshaAllah. And I would like to share this quote that I always use to console myself; it is okay to cry when we can't bear the sadness for every tears that falls in patience will bring about rewards in the Hearafter, inshaAllah.


Looking at people's various response to the two tragic incidents in two consecutive years is, honestly, can be distressing. There is much noise especially in social media; of rants, of hatred, of conjectures... Some theories are so absurd that I have no idea just how people are inclined to even believe them. Then I found this from one of the blog that I recently followed, which in a way explains how absurd lies can turn into something presumed truthful..

"Noise drowns the voice of truth. As more and more noise fills the internet, it gets harder for anyone to sort out the good from the bad.
Secondly, noise gives credibility to falsehood. When a lie gets circulated enough, it ceases to be a lie and  instead gets upgrade to the status of truth."

And then I had a conversation with a best friend and she asked, "Do you think this is what is meant by the signs of qiyammah? You know.. Fitnaa everywhere.. The media being the source of Fitnaa and it spread so widely..."
"Yup, this might be it. Who knows~"

Ya... There are times when we forget to consider the impact of our behaviour. We slide our index finger on the glossy touch-screen, saw an interesting post, read through it and feel the rush of adrenaline in our veins to have read such a sensational thing. "Ah! This is share-worthy," And 'thump!', index finger on the share tab. How harmful could that be? It could be destructive especially to the minds and emotions...

We have seen so many lies spread over the internet. What I can't understand,  after being lied so many times, why are the same people in my friend list still do the same thing again and again...??? Nda faham~

Anyway...

In the times of turbulence (even though we are not directly affected), in respect to those who are affected, we should be more mindful with our words and the things that we spread over the internet. Lets be those who shares positivity and be the kind who give the affected families strength instead of more sorrow...

And it is sad to see how this tragedy is used as a substance to bash the country's governance and Islam. Bad things happen everywhere and it is inevitable. When it happens, it happens~ I just think it's unfair to highlight this tragedy as a prove of 'incompetency' of the current government because it is clear that a lot of effort are being put to resolve it just as it was for last year's Sulu invasion... Some people are just weird and thought they know better and have better ideas than anyone else on earth... Well, as far as I see it, the ones at work are those who are being bashed. While the ones who are so eager criticizing sleep soundly in the comforts of their homes after leaving much harsh words online....


We can't do much as a normal citizen, can we? But mind you, our prayers are powerful, inshaAllah :)



Switzerland: Grindelwald~

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Bismillah...

So lets continue to our next part of the journey.. 

I don't know how others decide where to go when they travel. Well, for us, we will not try to aim everything but will get the best of two or three things that we want most. That's why you see we will only get to do one or two things in a day but we will spend at least 3 hours to half-day at one attraction. So, since Switzerland is very famous with their train network and mountain cable cars, so we decided to experience the cable car.



Why we didn't choose to take the train pass and drive instead... Because the train pass is not cheap!! We saved a lot from driving. I remember we only filled the fuel tank once throughout the journey. And I don't want to carry my backpack from one train to another although everything are well connected and well scheduled... hehe ku tidak setegap itu...


I was the one driving. We set the GPS for Grindelwald and was first led by the GPS to a dead end.. We stopped at a junction that leads to a secluded-looking gravel road when the GPS reported we have reached our destination. We went out of the car in confusion and looked around for a cable car station. There was nothing.

"Rasanya Grindelwald GPS ni dok kat atas cliff depan ni...."

So we continue to drive further and finally saw the cable car station signboard.. \(^^)/ yeay!



This is the station's visitor parking lot. The place was incredibly stunning. This valley is entirely enclosed by these snow-capped mountains. They are not higher than mount. Kinabalu. But, I guess, being at the northern hemisphere makes it snow on top


The return ticket was suppose to be around CHF 56~ But we only paid CHF 31.. 
And I don't remember why hahaha (^^") 
But.. No worries people.. If you are entitle for price reduction, the staff will tell you like they did to us. 
They have free wi-fi at the station so you can post pics terusssssssss ke social media like what I did.. 
Teruja ok! 
On top and below are the pictures taken from the cable car as it ascend to the top.


I think it is the contrast between the green valley and the white peaks that makes it so breathtaking. And then you have some cows mooing below you and you can hear the clanking sound of the bells worn on their necks.


So that's how the station looks like. If we have enough time, we would've gone until the Jungfrau region. You can go with this cable car and then change to train in another station to go to the highest train station in the world (if not in Europe). Definitely will repeat this!!!!!!!!!!


So this is the view from where we are standing in the picture below.


Another activity you can do here is hike to the peak. It's actually not that far but since the path is covered by snow, it is extremely slippery so make sure you have with you a suitable pair of shoes.


It was not very cold when we were there. I took off my winter  jacket and wore my Nike jacket. Although it was ice all around, the sun was shining so bright above us. I got a bad sun burn after that haha So this hike to the top took about 30 minutes and when we went down, the ice already started to melt and the snow was no longer as thick as when we climb up. I slipped once and got buried in the snow. My friends panicked for awhile and started calling my name because I was no where to be seen. Aku hanya mampu angkat tangan dan menjawab "Gg kat sini!!!" haha


Ini abang Ricola haha Sebab dia bagi Ricola dekat RA who was trying to catch her breath when she reached the top.. So sweet kannnnn???? Sebab tu la aku suka mereka c mata biru, c hidung mancung~ :p

We spent almost an hour on top; taking pictures of every corner of the 360 panorama. It is undeniably one of the best landscape that I've ever seen in my life.. Allahuakbar..
Just how vast the knowledge of our Creator, Allah s.w.t...

Dan bila suda penat.. Bole la dudok begini dan jadikan gambar ini profile picture untuk setengah tahun (^^)



And after this it's gonna be Switzerland's cities (^^)

Rompakan Pertama....

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Assalamualaikum...


I just don't want to leave this blog dormant for too long.. so while I write the continuation of our Eurotrip.. Nah.. Ini gambar terakhir bersama cik Note 10.1... Dia telah di rampok dengan jayanya di Ho Chi Minh...


I know.. I mistreated her.. But seriously, pak cik taxi yang jahat... I am no angel.. 
!@#$^@%&!^$@ YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Indochina aku datang (^^)/

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Maka dengan ini.. Semakin banyak lah hutang kisah2 travel ku~

\(^^)/ Excited okay!

Kenapa kenapa kenapa????

Sebab dua negara yang aku pergi ni punya war history yang AWESOME!!!!!

Don't get me wrong.. Awesome means I salute their victories and their courage to fight for their country and freedom. uiseh..

baeklah... \\(",) semoga semuanya berjalan lancar...Ameen~


I am a little bit obsess of this new bag~ It's so neat! 
With the right number of slots and pockets at the right places and you can unzipped it this wide.. So convenient that I no longer have to dig my stuff out Heeee (^^)

Bought this in NZ. There was this Kathmandu Year End Sale and discount up to 70%~ Borong ar aku
6 outdoor items cost me RM 1100.. Ko bole dapat ka di Malaysia harga gini yang ori??? Jap mari aku share, sneak peek post NZ la kono...

Kalau d Malaysia, mungkin beg & hiking shoes saja suda RM 1100~

 

Printing all bookings 5 days before departure


Dan.. Hampir selesai (^^)


Dear Heart..

"Acceptance is the key to be..
To be truly free..
Will you do the same for me..??

Hatinya bukan milik kamu~ Jadi kamu kena teruskan berdegup
Teruskan berjalan~

Ter-Over-Efficient~

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Bismillah...


I guess, after all the ordeals that trampled on me last year, I'm urged to regain control of my life. Enough with the sadness, enough with the confusions, enough with the heartbreaks.. Enough is enough.... I really need to get back on track and maneuver myself back to where I want to be...

So, I started off with a simple 2014 resolution; all I wanted for this year is PRODUCTIVITY. That's it. One word that I think is universal, objective and more achievable. And, Alhamdulillah, up until today (writing this on Valentine's day, a Friday night) it is still being executed.. I have nothing pending except for my travel posts. Bedroom is neat as how it is supposed to be (heeee me & my mild OCD.. ok la it's actually moderate OCD) and yup, so far I think it's achieved and harap2 la istiqomah... Hurm.. Makan glucosamine pon compliant sudeyh hehe Mo hiking punya pasal....

I am so free tonight that I added some new labels under 'Countries I Went'. So it's easier for you to trace old travel posts. I'm still thinking of whether I should put countries like Brunei, Thailand and Indonesia in because the posts for those countries are very few and none for Thailand because I went there when I was in high school. Tengok la nanti macam mana....

And then as I was adding labels to the old posts, I actually came across two posts about my bucket list!!!!!!!!!! \(^^)/ And I got extremely ecstatic to find that I actually fulfilled most of them already without me even noticing!!!! 


Mari kita revise apa yang sudah di realized (^^)

From 2009.. Bungee Jumping!!!!

This is actually my recent jump in Sunway Lagoon during our school reunion.
Can't find the one in Seoul hehe lama suda itu!

High up in the air without an oval glass in front of my nose...

Yarra Valley, Melbourne.. Nampak nda aku peace peace tu (^^)v

Eurotrip!!!!!!!!!! Ok.. mau letak pic apa ha....

Saat bersenam dengan Encik Kacak haha
I'm in the process of writing the Eurotrip kan.. So x mau spoil la kono~

So from my 2012 list...

\(^^)/ Iceland lah!!!! Alhamdulillah.. Memang macam nda percaya I've been that far from my homeland.. Cewah!

Nah! Ice di Iceland!

New Zealand (^^) hurm finally aku rasa, NZ agak overrated la jugak.. Kalau mau cakap cantik, aku rasa Switzerland tu lebih cantik dan nda commercialized sangat hehe nanati kita cerita kenapa aku jadi begini~



Hurm.... One more will be fulfilled this year, inshaAllah...

(^^) Dare to dream.. And dare to make it come true...